A Lonely Boy, But Enough

I see myself,

even when no one else does.


My eyes carry oceans,

but I walk as if the waves aren’t heavy.


I don’t ask to be lighter.

I just keep moving.

Breath after breath,

step after step,

through nights that never seem to end,

through grief that lies beside me like a dog that never leaves.


Some days are only dust.

No water.

But I remind myself—

I’m not just walking through the days.

The days are walking through me.

Shaping me in ways I can’t yet see.


In the dim light,

I write.

I erase.

I write again.

I hold on to the faces I miss.

I listen to the echoes inside my chest.


I don’t fight the loneliness.

I let it sit with me.

A quiet companion.

And together,

we make it softer.


Yes.

I am a lonely boy.

But even loneliness

walks beside me.


And that is enough.

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