To Love You, Even Now

To love you,

to love it even—

when you left me

sixteen years ago.

And everything you held dear

crumbles like fire

eating through the days we built.


My throat swells

with memories of you.

Tears sit beside me,

their cold heat

melting to liquid,

then vanishing into vapor.

Tears weigh down my body

like death itself.

The only truth my mind knows—

this heart shrinks in silence,

and you're not here to wipe it away.


How do I withstand this

without you?


I hold our son and daughter close,

and see you in their eyes—

two innocent kids,

no tears in them,

no smiles on their cheeks.

And I whisper to you,

softly in my mind:

"Okay… you left me.

Still,

I will love you,

again

and again." 

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